Saturday, 14 April 2007

bewdeefull conference

this is a pic of me, the cohens and my bro - caleb

I just want to say first off that the conference was great.

I really enjoyed my past week at the Bible Conference at Geographe Bay. Although I had real difficulty getting to sleep on 3 out of 4 nights, I still managed to stay awake for most activities – and God really gave me the sustenance to get through the whole conference on minimal sleep (as He always does). Also, I really had a great time with my roomies in villa 62 (Dorcas, Merilyn, Eileen, John & Michelle) and I really enjoyed villa-time eating, drinking, singing, cooking, sleeping, grooming, feeding ducks, watching Discovery Channel crime shows, and everything in between with the girls (and fellow).

The speaker, Dr Gary Cohen, is a converted Jew (he has a cool Jewish accent and kept saying that everything was 'bewdeefull' hehe)who accepted Christ as a young child. He shared about how he became a Christian and his testimony was so incredible. He pretty much bought the wrong Bible (one with a new testament), read it, believed it and became a Christian! He shared with us how, after years of his family rejecting him, many of them came to receive Christ as well (through many different ways – including through a television evangelist!). It was a truly incredible and encouraging testimony.

But the whole reason for the conference was to learn about the book of Revelation. The message that spoke to me most was the one about the seven letters from Jesus to the seven churches. Basically, the letters were written to encourage them as well as to warn them about the problems he saw within each one. When Dr Cohen shared this message, I was greatly convicted because nearly every warning from Jesus seemed to be applicable in my own spiritual life. Jesus encouraged the churches by telling them that God knows their situation and the struggles that they face and gave them the advice to repent, hold fast, be watchful, and pray for God to help give them the strength, opportunity and resources to get right with Him and start doing His work. This is pretty much exactly what I need to do too.

I spent time during the free time to identify barriers that are stopping me from getting closer to God and I have spent time in prayer asking God to help me overcome these things. I am glad that I did that, but I also felt a bit lost as to where to go and what to do from that point onwards. I guessed that it was probably just to keep up the prayer and to spend time with God. But on the way home, Truc confirmed this with me when she said to me when you start spending a lot of time with someone, you start to think like them – so the same goes when you spend more time with God, you will end up thinking more like Him too. I think that was pretty good advice – thanks Truc! I guess now the challenge is to follow that advice.

I ended up coming back early and skipping the Albany leg of the trip because of the tiredness catching up on me. I really wanted to join my family in Albany but I also thought that it was important for me to be able to go to work on Monday with a clear, rested and alert mind, and knowing that I would be away until late Sunday night with my rellies, I thought it would be best to skip that trip and continue to pray for my parents and brothers from home. I really ask the Lord that that they will have the opportunity and courage to witness to the rellies.

Tuesday, 10 April 2007

spiritual r & r


Tomorrow I will be off to my church's Bible Conference.



People have been asking me if I feel excited about the conference and at first my automatic answer to them was 'not really'. I guess at the time, I wasn't really looking forward to it because I wasn't that sure that it was worth me taking time off work to attend the conference. My hesitations came mostly because all the talk about the conference seemed to be about what people wanted to do in their free-time and how much tennis and volleyball they could play. That didn't really appeal to me - not because I don't like sports (because I do love sports), but because that kind of thing can be done while I am still working - i.e. I don't have to (and wouldn't usually) take leave to do things like that.

So yeah, I was kinda regretting the decision. But then I had a chat to Truc and she basically said that the conference will be what I make it to be... I will get out of it what I put in basically - so I decided that this coming week will be my time of spiriutal rest and relaxation.

My spiritual life has been a bit dodgy for about a year now. Ever since I started working I have slipped further and further away from God and have relly struggled in getting back to a close relationship with Him - I feel as though I am far from it still. I think around my Birthday last year, I had a bit of a spiritual check-up with myself and started to take some active steps in getting right with God. In December we had camp, which was a good spiriutal boost for me, but in the recent months, I have found that I have started to slip away again. It frustrates me when I see myself like this, because I not only feel like a hypocrite in church and stuff, but I also feel like I am treating the God who loves me and cares for me like dirt. And I hate that.

So I think tomorrow (or should I say later today), I will use the time at the conference to get right with God once again and put together a plan to keep right with Him. I have put together my little pack of things to work through like:

my Bible

highlighters and pens for my own study

books - I am taking some of the ones I am trying to read through as well as...

a book by wayne mack - which is a collection of biblical counselling homework sheets that I can use for reflection

one of my many unused journals for writing down thoughts and things learnt

my guitar

my mp3 player loaded with sermons and songs

walking shoes and

chocolate (hehe)


I just want to thank God also for giving me caring brothers and sisters in Christ who have noticed that I haven't been my true self for a while and who have been praying for me. There was a time last year where I got upset when people told me they were praying for me (at the time I got offended and even angry - I tried to hide this, but I think it came through sometimes too). So if you have been praying for me, and I have been a right cow back at you, thankyou so much and I am so sorry!

I do really want to get right with God again. I know that going to the conference isn't going to be an instant fix, but I am sure it will be a start - so I am glad to say that I am now looking forward to the conference and using the time to hang out with my Lord and God, whilst checking out His beautiful creation!

I should also mention that we are going to go to Albany after the conference with my rellies, so if anyone reads this, please pray that they will have the faith to believe in God.

Monday, 9 April 2007

lazy blogger

For someone who is a self-confessed techno-phobe... I think I am doing alright with this blog thing... I'm keeping pretty regular blog-wise (you could have read that SOOOO wrong) and I am starting to get my head around editing html to make it do stuff that I want it to do (like paste in videos from 'the tube')... very basic stuff I know - but it's a pretty big step for me so back off alright?? haha

I came across a thing called God Tube today... pretty funny stuff on there - some very random stuff too. This video made me laugh - I wonder if it will work... Something to put to the evangelism committee in the future I guess =) (just kidding). Anyways, hope you all had a good easter today - I for one, have eaten way too much chocolate!




Saturday, 7 April 2007

joy vs happiness


Although the fig tree shall not blossom,
neither shall fruit be in the vines;
the labour of the olive shall fail,
and the fields shall yield no meat;
the flock shall be cut off from the fold,
and there shall be no herd in the stalls:
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.
Habakkuk 3:17-18

I learnt something interesting today. Joy is different from happiness - yeah! You'd think they were kinda the same thing but happiness is the result of happenings around you and joy is from the inside. The verse above describes happenings that would usually cause us to be unhappy - no figs, no fruit, no erm.. olive work, no meat (that's something that would make me unhappy), no herds... yet Mr Habakkuk (or the person who wrote this book) says we should be joyful despite this because our rejoicing comes in the Lord, our joy is in the God of our salvation. The Message translation of verse 18 says: I'm singing joyful praise to God. I'm turning cartwheels of joy to my Savior God.

I often find myself in church feeling sorry for myself for the things that happen in my life and thinking to myself, with all the crap that's happened to me recently, how could I possibly sing praises to God? I think that it's absolutely impossible to be happy with all the external stuff dragging me down.

But as I learnt today, joy isn't like that. Joy is inward. Joy is from God. You can be unhappy because of the things that happen to you but you can be joyful at the same time. Cool huh? So essentially, saying that you are too unhappy to praise God is being selfish and self-involved. I need to continue to tell myself that it's not about me, it's all about GOD. I still don't think I understand this whole concept, but just that small bit of info has helped me learn more about myself.

Fact of the matter is that despite the dissappointments and happiness-killing-things that happen in life, we should always continue to praise God because He is worthy to be praised!

Friday, 6 April 2007

rellies in town


That's a picture of my grandma and auntie... she looks cute eh?

My rellies are coming over tomorrow morning, none of the ones pictured incidently, but they are from my mum's side of the family and when I think of them, I usually think of my grandma hence the link to the picture. My rellies are really cool. They are pretty easy-going and they laugh really easily - all I have to do is try to speak Thai and they absolutely lose it... Hmm maybe that might just be my dodgy-language-skills... Nah, it's cos I'm FUNNY! **in denial**

None of them have ever come to Australia before (I don't think they have anyway), and I am pretty excited to show them around this awesome country! Well as you know, they aren't saved - YET! But me and my family are hoping to use the few weeks they are here to start planting the gospel seed, so if you are reading this, please keep us in prayer! We are going down to Albany next weekend... Hopefully there will be opportunities then :)

And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.
Acts 16:31

Thursday, 5 April 2007

Good Friday



I saw this video on YouTube and thought it would be appropriate for Good Friday. Every time I see this, tears well up in my eyes as I realise just how much my Saviour loves me. He went through all this suffering, shame and torture for all the things that I do without even thinking. That was the ultimate demonstration of love. Often as Christians, we make light of what He did for us and really only remember the sacrifice He made for us and the suffering He went through once a year on Good Friday. I mean, it is a good thing to remember this on Good Friday, but why just once a year?

Anyway, I hope the video touches your heart like it did mine. I have posted the lyrics of the song by Joel Engle below.

Lord, please help me to never forget what You did for me. May Your love continue to be by teacher and may my love for You continue to grow and motivate me to do and be all I can for You alone.


Joel Engle - Shadow Of Your Cross

Lamb of God, Son of man how you suffered how You bled

With a crown of thorns pressed upon Your head

You chose the road of pain You walked the hill of all my shame, all my shame

In the shadow of Your cross, I will live for all my days

How could I forget the price You paid?

In the shelter of Your love I will give You all my praise

In the shadow of Your cross I will stay

Man of sorrows crucified pure and holy sacrifice

As the hammer hit the nail You offered up Your life

You gave up heaven for Your own

You took our punishment alone

You were so alone

O King of Majesty

Forever I will sing

Of the gift You gave to me

You gave to me

Monday, 2 April 2007

current reading

Revelation, Leviticus, 2 Samuel, Matthew

Purpose Driven Life - Rick Warren (this is my second time through though)

Tired of to-do-list Christianity? - Scott Morton

The Path of Loneliness - Elisabeth Elliott

The Divine Art of Soulwinning - J. Oswald Sanders

Saturday, 14 April 2007

bewdeefull conference

this is a pic of me, the cohens and my bro - caleb

I just want to say first off that the conference was great.

I really enjoyed my past week at the Bible Conference at Geographe Bay. Although I had real difficulty getting to sleep on 3 out of 4 nights, I still managed to stay awake for most activities – and God really gave me the sustenance to get through the whole conference on minimal sleep (as He always does). Also, I really had a great time with my roomies in villa 62 (Dorcas, Merilyn, Eileen, John & Michelle) and I really enjoyed villa-time eating, drinking, singing, cooking, sleeping, grooming, feeding ducks, watching Discovery Channel crime shows, and everything in between with the girls (and fellow).

The speaker, Dr Gary Cohen, is a converted Jew (he has a cool Jewish accent and kept saying that everything was 'bewdeefull' hehe)who accepted Christ as a young child. He shared about how he became a Christian and his testimony was so incredible. He pretty much bought the wrong Bible (one with a new testament), read it, believed it and became a Christian! He shared with us how, after years of his family rejecting him, many of them came to receive Christ as well (through many different ways – including through a television evangelist!). It was a truly incredible and encouraging testimony.

But the whole reason for the conference was to learn about the book of Revelation. The message that spoke to me most was the one about the seven letters from Jesus to the seven churches. Basically, the letters were written to encourage them as well as to warn them about the problems he saw within each one. When Dr Cohen shared this message, I was greatly convicted because nearly every warning from Jesus seemed to be applicable in my own spiritual life. Jesus encouraged the churches by telling them that God knows their situation and the struggles that they face and gave them the advice to repent, hold fast, be watchful, and pray for God to help give them the strength, opportunity and resources to get right with Him and start doing His work. This is pretty much exactly what I need to do too.

I spent time during the free time to identify barriers that are stopping me from getting closer to God and I have spent time in prayer asking God to help me overcome these things. I am glad that I did that, but I also felt a bit lost as to where to go and what to do from that point onwards. I guessed that it was probably just to keep up the prayer and to spend time with God. But on the way home, Truc confirmed this with me when she said to me when you start spending a lot of time with someone, you start to think like them – so the same goes when you spend more time with God, you will end up thinking more like Him too. I think that was pretty good advice – thanks Truc! I guess now the challenge is to follow that advice.

I ended up coming back early and skipping the Albany leg of the trip because of the tiredness catching up on me. I really wanted to join my family in Albany but I also thought that it was important for me to be able to go to work on Monday with a clear, rested and alert mind, and knowing that I would be away until late Sunday night with my rellies, I thought it would be best to skip that trip and continue to pray for my parents and brothers from home. I really ask the Lord that that they will have the opportunity and courage to witness to the rellies.

Tuesday, 10 April 2007

spiritual r & r


Tomorrow I will be off to my church's Bible Conference.



People have been asking me if I feel excited about the conference and at first my automatic answer to them was 'not really'. I guess at the time, I wasn't really looking forward to it because I wasn't that sure that it was worth me taking time off work to attend the conference. My hesitations came mostly because all the talk about the conference seemed to be about what people wanted to do in their free-time and how much tennis and volleyball they could play. That didn't really appeal to me - not because I don't like sports (because I do love sports), but because that kind of thing can be done while I am still working - i.e. I don't have to (and wouldn't usually) take leave to do things like that.

So yeah, I was kinda regretting the decision. But then I had a chat to Truc and she basically said that the conference will be what I make it to be... I will get out of it what I put in basically - so I decided that this coming week will be my time of spiriutal rest and relaxation.

My spiritual life has been a bit dodgy for about a year now. Ever since I started working I have slipped further and further away from God and have relly struggled in getting back to a close relationship with Him - I feel as though I am far from it still. I think around my Birthday last year, I had a bit of a spiritual check-up with myself and started to take some active steps in getting right with God. In December we had camp, which was a good spiriutal boost for me, but in the recent months, I have found that I have started to slip away again. It frustrates me when I see myself like this, because I not only feel like a hypocrite in church and stuff, but I also feel like I am treating the God who loves me and cares for me like dirt. And I hate that.

So I think tomorrow (or should I say later today), I will use the time at the conference to get right with God once again and put together a plan to keep right with Him. I have put together my little pack of things to work through like:

my Bible

highlighters and pens for my own study

books - I am taking some of the ones I am trying to read through as well as...

a book by wayne mack - which is a collection of biblical counselling homework sheets that I can use for reflection

one of my many unused journals for writing down thoughts and things learnt

my guitar

my mp3 player loaded with sermons and songs

walking shoes and

chocolate (hehe)


I just want to thank God also for giving me caring brothers and sisters in Christ who have noticed that I haven't been my true self for a while and who have been praying for me. There was a time last year where I got upset when people told me they were praying for me (at the time I got offended and even angry - I tried to hide this, but I think it came through sometimes too). So if you have been praying for me, and I have been a right cow back at you, thankyou so much and I am so sorry!

I do really want to get right with God again. I know that going to the conference isn't going to be an instant fix, but I am sure it will be a start - so I am glad to say that I am now looking forward to the conference and using the time to hang out with my Lord and God, whilst checking out His beautiful creation!

I should also mention that we are going to go to Albany after the conference with my rellies, so if anyone reads this, please pray that they will have the faith to believe in God.

Monday, 9 April 2007

lazy blogger

For someone who is a self-confessed techno-phobe... I think I am doing alright with this blog thing... I'm keeping pretty regular blog-wise (you could have read that SOOOO wrong) and I am starting to get my head around editing html to make it do stuff that I want it to do (like paste in videos from 'the tube')... very basic stuff I know - but it's a pretty big step for me so back off alright?? haha

I came across a thing called God Tube today... pretty funny stuff on there - some very random stuff too. This video made me laugh - I wonder if it will work... Something to put to the evangelism committee in the future I guess =) (just kidding). Anyways, hope you all had a good easter today - I for one, have eaten way too much chocolate!




Saturday, 7 April 2007

joy vs happiness


Although the fig tree shall not blossom,
neither shall fruit be in the vines;
the labour of the olive shall fail,
and the fields shall yield no meat;
the flock shall be cut off from the fold,
and there shall be no herd in the stalls:
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.
Habakkuk 3:17-18

I learnt something interesting today. Joy is different from happiness - yeah! You'd think they were kinda the same thing but happiness is the result of happenings around you and joy is from the inside. The verse above describes happenings that would usually cause us to be unhappy - no figs, no fruit, no erm.. olive work, no meat (that's something that would make me unhappy), no herds... yet Mr Habakkuk (or the person who wrote this book) says we should be joyful despite this because our rejoicing comes in the Lord, our joy is in the God of our salvation. The Message translation of verse 18 says: I'm singing joyful praise to God. I'm turning cartwheels of joy to my Savior God.

I often find myself in church feeling sorry for myself for the things that happen in my life and thinking to myself, with all the crap that's happened to me recently, how could I possibly sing praises to God? I think that it's absolutely impossible to be happy with all the external stuff dragging me down.

But as I learnt today, joy isn't like that. Joy is inward. Joy is from God. You can be unhappy because of the things that happen to you but you can be joyful at the same time. Cool huh? So essentially, saying that you are too unhappy to praise God is being selfish and self-involved. I need to continue to tell myself that it's not about me, it's all about GOD. I still don't think I understand this whole concept, but just that small bit of info has helped me learn more about myself.

Fact of the matter is that despite the dissappointments and happiness-killing-things that happen in life, we should always continue to praise God because He is worthy to be praised!

Friday, 6 April 2007

rellies in town


That's a picture of my grandma and auntie... she looks cute eh?

My rellies are coming over tomorrow morning, none of the ones pictured incidently, but they are from my mum's side of the family and when I think of them, I usually think of my grandma hence the link to the picture. My rellies are really cool. They are pretty easy-going and they laugh really easily - all I have to do is try to speak Thai and they absolutely lose it... Hmm maybe that might just be my dodgy-language-skills... Nah, it's cos I'm FUNNY! **in denial**

None of them have ever come to Australia before (I don't think they have anyway), and I am pretty excited to show them around this awesome country! Well as you know, they aren't saved - YET! But me and my family are hoping to use the few weeks they are here to start planting the gospel seed, so if you are reading this, please keep us in prayer! We are going down to Albany next weekend... Hopefully there will be opportunities then :)

And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.
Acts 16:31

Thursday, 5 April 2007

Good Friday



I saw this video on YouTube and thought it would be appropriate for Good Friday. Every time I see this, tears well up in my eyes as I realise just how much my Saviour loves me. He went through all this suffering, shame and torture for all the things that I do without even thinking. That was the ultimate demonstration of love. Often as Christians, we make light of what He did for us and really only remember the sacrifice He made for us and the suffering He went through once a year on Good Friday. I mean, it is a good thing to remember this on Good Friday, but why just once a year?

Anyway, I hope the video touches your heart like it did mine. I have posted the lyrics of the song by Joel Engle below.

Lord, please help me to never forget what You did for me. May Your love continue to be by teacher and may my love for You continue to grow and motivate me to do and be all I can for You alone.


Joel Engle - Shadow Of Your Cross

Lamb of God, Son of man how you suffered how You bled

With a crown of thorns pressed upon Your head

You chose the road of pain You walked the hill of all my shame, all my shame

In the shadow of Your cross, I will live for all my days

How could I forget the price You paid?

In the shelter of Your love I will give You all my praise

In the shadow of Your cross I will stay

Man of sorrows crucified pure and holy sacrifice

As the hammer hit the nail You offered up Your life

You gave up heaven for Your own

You took our punishment alone

You were so alone

O King of Majesty

Forever I will sing

Of the gift You gave to me

You gave to me

Monday, 2 April 2007

current reading

Revelation, Leviticus, 2 Samuel, Matthew

Purpose Driven Life - Rick Warren (this is my second time through though)

Tired of to-do-list Christianity? - Scott Morton

The Path of Loneliness - Elisabeth Elliott

The Divine Art of Soulwinning - J. Oswald Sanders